Faith

There will be time when you feel completely nothing. Nothing. The reason behind that is you feel too many feeling at once, until you couldn't feel anything. I'm trying to make a reason in every single thing that had happened but I just couldn't find the right one. Then I end up feeling empty. Among every feeling that anyone could possibly felt, I guess this one is one of the worst. I've asked God too many thing that I think I don't deserve any of the them. Then I felt terrible about myself. I know I don't deserve it. Then I pray again so that everything will be fine. But the thing is, nothing will be fine. Not when you're in the form of mortal. We tend to face it. To face the mortality world. When something gone good, another bad appears. Infinitely. Paradoxically. Pain to realize and what more to accept the truth. But then, we mortal have a very special thing to hold on to, I call that 'thing' FAITH. It's the strongest power everyone had ever had. FAITH kept me going on. FAITH let me see the abstract of my future regardless whether you deserve it or not. FAITH kept telling me that everything will be fine. FAITH kept telling me to never give up. FAITH kept telling me that this too shall pass. Because faith lead you to take the first step even when you don't know the whole staircase.

So, resolution of this.... Keep having faith of things will get better. P/s: God please don't give me test that I have to see my parents tears. Sincerely, mortal child with empty feeling.