Starting to fade

When we reach a certain time in a long term relationship, I noticed that people change... To better or worst? You started have less interest in doing things with me. You started eat your meal without me. You stop finding me. You stop texting me good morning messages. You stop treating me with surprises. You stop caring me. You stop caring whether i'm happy, or sad, or lonely. Which most of the time I'm spending my time alone. Without friends. Without true laughter in each day. You realize that I have no close friend. No fun time and casual hang out with friends. Because I have no one, except you. I have no one, except you. You stop planning exciting adventure for us. You started plan things for you own. Like this weekend, you'd love to have a ride to rizal, with or without me going with you, it's fine with you. I don't know, maybe you found out that I'm not as interesting as I am when you met me at the first time. We've been through a lot of troubles. All the troubles we've faced changed me completely. I became less friendly, less talkative to new people, I lose my self esteem. I become lonely and lonelier each day. I don't know if you realize that my heart breaks every time you fail to meet me each day. I look forward to meet you everyday. Just meeting you would make me happy. Because with you I can laugh, and have conversation, and evolve. But maybe you don't feel the same as what I feel for you. You have new excitement in your life, of course not me. I feel happy to see how excited you are with your goals. But you started forget that I wanted to feel your excitement too. I feel that I'm not included. You would even stop reading this passage at the second sentence. That's how it is. You stop. :( What I'm going to do with this? I will eventually starting living my life without hoping your presence. I will start explore my world alone. I will start to love and be happy again. I will start to find ways on my own. Eventually, I will be me again someday. I pray hard to be me again. So if you decided to stop doing and growing things with me, I have no choice but to do things on my own. because that's what make me happy. :) You can't keep me like this forever unless you realize what is wrong with our relationship.