My Hopeless Crush

This is a story of my 'hopeless crush' he is about 7 inches taller than me. his skin is as white as vampire,(imagine Edward Cullen) he got a chubby cheek, and wears expensive outfits. He's wearing Samsung note3 and never-ending-smelling-good perfume, first time i saw him is in my engineering drawing class, and like many other girls in that class, we tried to make a conversation with him, but he is a shy type, he doesn't get rolling in with new people that easy, for me, aww, it's fine, at least i talked to him, he drew reeaaallly good.! better than any people i saw in that class, which is i got intimidated for the first time by a guy i had crush with. i was like "hey, how do u draw this part?", "hey, what is measurement in this section?" etc.. he's the reason i need to keep up with my drawing skill..and then... i fall apart... my drawings get ugly, and i didn't make it to pass my assignment on time.. since then, i didn't even have the gut to talk to him anymore, cuz i'm shy and embarrassed.. well, u know, he achieve well, me, i'm just a piece of junk.. (LOL) but i manage to pass..with a grade that 'just pass'...him, he got 1 pointer something. i got 3 ! that's our gap! a hopeless crush on him, and i will never had a chance with him. :( The next term, my most unexpected wonderful thing had happened. We are classmate again, in solid mensuration class..!! omgosh..! first thing when i walked in my solid mensuration class for the very first time, my eyes locked on his eyes, then he gave me a small hi wave gesture, of course i say hi gesture too.. omgoosshh.. if the flowers in the Paris garden blooms to their pinkish colors, well, i might be the the flower who blush soo pink..or rather red. and i'm sitting next to him cuz that the only available seat that is strategic and it is beside my crush. >.< only Heaven knows how i felt that day.. and then...mute....nothing...absolutely nada..

i told ya once, he is a shy type who doesn't make the first step... hmmm... :/ i only had the privilege to see him every monday and tuesday.. 10:30am to 12:00pm... that's the only heaven moment i had the chance to lurking and steal a glance at him. maybe several glances. a week had passed, no words...2 weeks..3 weeks..still no words.. i tell to myself, i better get myself on the ground cuz it's really some serious shit i'm dealing with, i mean my course isn't easy, and i don't have time to waste for some puppy hopeless crush. awww... and then, group project..!! BINGGO..!! i will remember this for the rest of my life..! we was like "hey, do you have a group member yet for the group project?" of course i said no. "uhm, not yet.." he said "can we be in the same group?" my world stop for a while... let me describe this in a metaphor way.. the whole world stop for a while, cuz this is amazing, just the way it is.... LOL...

and the next class meeting, i gathered all my guts and i swear to talk to him. it's now or never. all i need was a mountain of courage to make a conversation with him.! that's it. I even memorize a line to start with. LOL i walked in the class. my heart can't stop but beats even faster. like always, he was so immersed in his gadget. and i sat next to him, try the hell out of me to act normal. >.< and i say "hi.." with a smile :) he replied to "hi.." with a smile. "ermm, what's your course again? Chemical Engr right?" "no, it's CE.. Civil Engr" wooow, i said to myself. how cool is that! then he close his gadget, and make a posture that is ready for a conversation. then, everything going soo well... i ask question.he answer...he ask question, i answer... little by little, i know something about himself. he was a transfer from La Salle Unversity. A rich and standard school. ok, that's making a whole large gap. between earth and sky. And the next meeting, we grew closer, jokes we're exchange, laughs.. and when we become serious again to listen to the prof's lecture, i was smiling like idiot there. yea, and i realize his laugh is the best sound i ever heard, (ewww) i know.. but keep falling like this, nothing can help me. And i laugh every jokes and story he shared... i know, it's so hard to pull myself together, but Heaven knows this feeling is soo good whenever he's around. And there's magic in the air.! and the sparks fly whenever he smile. I know.. i know.. the more i hope, the deeper i cut myself. I just hope he felt the same way about me, which is impossible. :/ that's why this is called "my hopeless crush" everytime i get ready for school, i put on my make up, and pray for a miracle. "finger-crossed"

XOXO, please jump and fall into me... ps: when u found out about this, i'm sorry if this make u feel otherwise. I don't have the power to control this feeling. and if u feel the same thing about me, then that's Heaven's miracle.