well, hi... (the boring polite way as alwys)
I'm in my holiday week for some kind of festival or somewhat... at the first day of my holiday is that I feel very very (thousands of 'very') very light seems like i'm flying in the air and lying on the clouds where the sun smile at me with its light heat and i feel very very relief... relief of after weeks of brain-storming and being a heptic nerd just to prepare for the Exam in my school.. well, i think i'm doing good, but, not the 'goooood' i've alwys wanted... because, i tell u, being a science-streamed student and have the reputation as a 7As student is not, hardly not an easy climb for me.. then, all i have in my mind now about school is hoping that my result will be not the cause i'm going to 'kill myself'... cuz i think i'm falling apart from the real world and the real me... well, i'm...i..uh.. more like a lazy person right now (and I dreadfully want to find the reason why i'm becoming like 'this') and more careless and irrational and not the kind that an angel going to like me or whatever..i.. i just... uh, i just feel myself and the my world is falling apart and turn upside down, that is. And in my 'fairytale dream', I would like to wish that my guardian angel come and save me from this 'pathetic world' and lead me to a shining road of happiness and humbleness (like i've alwys wanted where i will seat on the end of the jetty in my very own island and wandering the most precious moment in my life and there the sun I've been waited to rise and set down from the horizon... and i can feel the soft breeze from the sea and everything is going the okay.. no war, no complication, no killing each other even killing animals, no being so greedy, just humbleness and happiness and calmness like I've alwys anything in this world...) I wanted so badly to be a kind person, beautiful inside, kind-hearted, generous.. (or am i right now, i don't know... i think i need a comment from that)
I'm the kind which alwys hoping something that will never be, for certainly, never going to be happen. cuz, it only happen in fairytale, not in my world...
few days in the school holiday makes me feel sick cuz all what i'm going to do is lying down, check my FB for 5 hours and wait 'till my mum came up anf starts her mumbling, and cook for lunch, and hear the music, read the novels which badly influence my tought, and all fighting with my sister, chat with friend.. all that i do 'inside' my house.. which is obviously not an outside activity.. u know, before the holiday starts, i've alrdy planned to have some exercise or jogging to keep my body fit cuz next week i'm going to attend a birthday party which means i hve to look adorable in my dress and not end up with belly beneath them..but, my plan didn't work, as alwys.. and i hate myself even more and this pathetic world..!! but, the hari raya day is good day for me, cuz, i hve to wake up early and take a bath and help my mum with her work in Clinic and earn extra money, extra pocket money.. hahax..! i alwys love money (but money turns me evil).. which the work i'm doing in the clinic is as alwys i've usually done during holidays.. (oh ya, i work as part-time of kind in the dispensing part and mum is the Med. Tech in that clinic).. but sometimes i usually escape from explaining the patient about the medicine i'm giving off cuz sometimes the patient is dreadfully rude or the patient has a pair of cute eyes or good-looking one..cuz i can't help myself if i'm drown into that circumstances... u know that dispensing is about talking to the patient, right? well, enough to that.. next is...
Next thing is, i read this novel, actually still reading it and i think i'm going to finish in 24 hours long of the 308 pages book..cuz the story is so, so so so so very very very interesting. I usually finish reading in 2-3 days, but not this book. It is so good, i mean, the best ever novel i've ever read in my entire world! oh ya, the title is.."An Angel for Emily".. it's about angel and romance and mysteries and everything..!! I just love it.. And, as i say, novel is a bad influence for me as now i'm believing that each of us living in this world have their own guardian angel. And the guardian angel would be there for u in every time ur in danger and gives u a sign or everything to makes everything is going to be just fine. but, FYI, the angel is invisible. And from the novel i read is that the angel is falling in love with the one he taking care of in the world. And romance and i did not know that angel is 'watching' at you all day and they can reads ur mind until i read this book.. so unbelievable..!! ok... I think there's more to come after i finish the novel.. and be sure u all read it too..cuz u will regret for not read it at the first place... k....daa....
Living in the pathetic world,
Cassie_myself
XOXO...^_^
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